Monday, April 14, 2008

Confession

So I went to Confession this weekend and it was an ordeal. Gman and I got in line right when we walked into Church and we finally got into the Confessional right before the Transubstantiation [and were the last ones to get in - the people behind me must have earned some time off Purgatory for having to stand in that long line behind a semi-rambunctious boy and then not even getting in]. I made my Confession [and G was really good, only a little curious about the man behind the screen - he kept peaking at him through a small hole the priests have made in the screen so they can pass you Holy cards] and while I had no mortal sins, I felt I had some significant ones. All I had for my penance [if you don't count standing in line in high heels holding a 30 lb squirmy boy for 45 minutes] was 1 HAIL HOLY QUEEN. That's it!!! What happened to my lecture? Isn't someone supposed to give me some advice on how to avoid sin? Or ask if there's something they can do or some advice they can give on how to make my life holier? How to avoid the deadly sins? I kind of felt gypped! Wouldn't Confession be a better sacrament if I were actually taken to task for my failings instead of summarily dismissed with a pat on the head? What happened to the Confessors of yesterday? Where is St. John Vianney? He gave strong lectures and real penances and people flocked to him in droves. We all know we're sinners and we want help and guidance to make our lives more Christlike. I wish I could find someone to help me on the path to following God's will. I really feel like I am swaying in the breeze all alone crying out for someone to lead me.